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145 - Eat More.

  The third day’s sun arrived in Tiran’s house.

  Writ peeked through the curtain slowly, silently cursing the way the sky kept getting brighter without giving her any mercy. Just like this house.

  Neither Tiran nor Knell had corrected themselves. Neither of them knocked on her door and said it was a mistake. Said she didn’t belong here. That the second floor was only for people who could be treated as human. Not tools. Not her.

  That fact was starting to sink into her head.

  She lowered herself to the floor beneath the window, knees folded, arms draped over them. She tilted to the left and rested her head against her arms.

  A mistake.

  Because her sight immediately found that fairy’s coin pouch under the desk. And now her body refused to move. Forced her gaze to stay fixed on that cursed little pouch.

  She’d pushed it there yesterday, nudging it under the desk with the tip of her foot, refusing to bend down, refusing to touch it. She’d had no choice but to empty her pockets when she changed her clothes.

  She hated that it was still there. Quietly wished it would grow legs and disappear on its own.

  Her fingers kept tapping the pocket where it used to be, and the grounding habit turned painful, a reminder of the foolish softness that had cost her dearly. But she couldn’t stop herself. Her fingers kept tapping, like they had a mind of their own and were protesting her decision to keep the pouch away.

  She closed her eyes to break the sight of it.

  Her shoulders felt stiff, and so did the rest of her body. Unsurprising, considering she still hadn’t touched the bed. Its sheets were still smooth, without a single crease.

  She knew it's just a bed, in Tiran's house, nevertheless. There’d be nothing wrong with it. But her body disagreed. Her fingertips tingled whenever her gaze caught it. Her body won over logic.

  Tiran noticed she barely slept after the first night. Or maybe it was Knell. She was the one who brought the sleep-aid pills with dinner. Writ was grateful her body could swallow them. And that the medicine didn’t trigger anything. Even though she slept curled on the floor instead.

  That was enough.

  She managed to eat. She managed to clean herself. She managed to sleep.

  That should be enough.

  But it wasn’t.

  Because the expectation returned like a hand on the back of her neck.

  The seventh bell marked the hour again, insistent even from afar. The sound reached her dulled, stripped of its sharpness.

  Today was the day Knell’s grace period ended. And Knell would expect her to come downstairs.

  Writ knew she had to come down before Knell told her to. Open the door, bring yesterday’s tray, walk the stairs, sit at the table, eat breakfast.

  She knew she was supposed to do that.

  But she couldn’t. Her limbs were heavy. Refusing.

  So she just waited.

  For a cue. For anything that would tell her it was okay to move.

  Time didn’t pass inside her room.

  It pressed.

  Her nails dug into her palms without her noticing. Her breathing went shallow, as if she was trying to occupy less air.

  Something in her chest locked up again.

  It wasn’t fear of Knell. It wasn’t fear of the house. Or maybe it was, at least partly. But truly, it was the ancient, bone-deep knowledge that moving without the right cue was wrong. Dangerous.

  So her body waited.

  Frozen. Heavy. Uncooperative. Like a puppet whose strings were held by someone who hadn’t yet decided she was allowed to stand.

  Her breath shook once. She swallowed. Tried again to rise.

  Nothing.

  Then—

  A knock. Three soft raps.

  “Are you awake?” Knell’s voice came through the door. “Breakfast is set. Bring your dinner tray down.”

  Knell moved away, her soft footsteps receding downstairs.

  Her words turned the invisible lock inside Writ.

  Not relief. Not ease. But movement. Her body obeyed before her thoughts caught up. She opened her eyes. Pretending she didn’t see the pouch. Her legs uncoiled with stiff, mechanical certainty.

  The command had been issued. The world had clicked back into a shape she understood.

  She stood, took the dinner tray from the desk, and stepped out of the room. Her steps were steady. Her mask, steadier. Because now she was allowed to. Because now she was expected to perform.

  Writ descended the stairs with muted, deliberate steps, each placed near the tread’s edge to keep the wood from creaking. She wasn’t trying to hide. Just trying not to exist too loudly in a place that wasn’t hers.

  Halfway down, movement in the foyer caught her eye.

  Knell stood close to Tiran, too close by Writ’s instinct. Close enough that their overlapping shadows shifted together on the polished floor. Tiran had one hand on the doorknob, preparing to leave. Knell reached up, brushed nonexistent dust from his collar, and then softly, easily, leaned in and kissed him.

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  A soft sound accompanied it, the faintest brush of fabric against fabric as Tiran leaned down a fraction to meet her.

  It wasn’t hungry or dramatic, and it wasn’t meant for anyone else.

  It was simply... allowed.

  Writ stopped mid-step. Not frozen, just stilled. Then shifted back two steps to stay fully out of sight.

  Knell murmured something too low to catch. Tiran responded in a tone Writ had never heard from him before. Gentle, unarmored.

  She could hear the smile in Knell’s voice. “See you later.”

  The door opened. Cold morning air drifted in.

  Writ’s hands tightened on the tray. She lowered her gaze automatically. Not from embarrassment, but discipline. This was private. Hierarchical. Functional. Something she wasn’t meant to witness.

  It was access. Permission. Trust, disguised as habit.

  Knell was allowed near him. Allowed to touch him. Allowed into his space, without consequence. Writ knew Treshfold-made could be used in many ways. Knell had many uses. Knell fulfilled them.

  Unlike her.

  The thought didn’t hurt. It simply landed. Correct and natural. Expected, even.

  Still, something inside her pulled tight, a small cold thread. A reminder.

  She was not part of this. She didn’t belong anywhere. Stay small. Stay quiet. Stay out of the way.

  Only when the door clicked shut and Knell stepped away, expression softening into a private, ordinary ease, did Writ continue down the stairs.

  The moment folded neatly into the dark pocket of her mind where she stored all reminders of her place.

  She had no wish to touch anyone. No hunger for affection. No desire to be in Knell’s position. She had learned better. Learned she must not hope for anything.

  Not after the fairy who kept intruding her mind. Not when everything associated with him risked breaking her. Not when a whisper of thought insisted keeping away would keep him safe too.

  She pushed the thought aside. She had no right to think of him. She had left him behind. She should not remember the way her chest hurt.

  Just focus. Stay functional. Do what’s expected.

  Writ stepped off the final stair with a blank face, precise posture, even breath.

  The dining room lay open to her right. Quiet and still. Everything in its expected place.

  Except... not quite.

  She didn’t slow, but something in the pattern tugged at her attention. Eight chairs before. Seven now.

  The thought flickered. Just long enough for a pinch of disorientation to prickle under her ribs, before duty pushed her forward.

  She entered the kitchen. Nodded at Knell, who mirrored the gesture with a small smile. Set the tray down by the sink.

  Knell glanced at the leftovers, barely touched except eggs and water. She raised her eyebrows, but said nothing about it. Instead, she instructed, “Help yourself. Food’s on the table.”

  Writ nodded and moved through the doorless arch into the dining room. When she returned, the quiet felt heavier.

  Writ walked toward the seat she habitually used without thinking—

  —and stopped.

  The empty space stared back at her where her chair had been. Not just any chair. Her chair.

  Her breath hitched. Not visible, but sharp inside her chest.

  Knell had removed it. On purpose.

  Writ’s fingers curled at her side, tiny tremors slipping through them.

  Did she do something wrong? At her last breakfast, years ago, before she left the house? Or after she arrived days ago?

  Sit improperly? Overstep? Violate some unspoken boundary? Knell didn’t act without intention. There had to be a reason.

  Yet she couldn’t read this. Couldn’t read Knell. Couldn’t tell where she was meant to be anymore.

  Knell crossed the kitchen, appearing briefly with a stack of plates. Writ stepped to the next chair, pulled it out, and sat quietly, hoping Knell hadn’t noticed her hesitation.

  She didn’t move at first.

  The chair felt too tall. Or she felt too small. Hard to tell.

  The dining room was quiet. Air heavy, walls listening. Knell’s clinking plates carried clearly from the kitchen. Writ stared at the food on the table. Mostly half-empty on the communal plates.

  Soup. Bread. Bacon. Omelette. Boiled eggs, their shells already peeled. An untouched bowl of broth.

  Safe food. Unsafe food. Old patterns she used to swallow without thinking. Before him. Before the sky and the grass and the fairy that ruined the simple logic of eating.

  Her throat tightened.

  Her hand reached automatically for the boiled egg, then stilled as Knell crossed the kitchen again, movement in the corner of Writ’s vision snapping her arm back.

  She picked up the fork instead. It made a tiny clink.

  Knell answered immediately from the kitchen. “You can skip the cutlery and use your hands if you want.”

  Writ froze for a half-second, then speared the egg and dropped it onto her own plate.

  She lifted the spoon because her hand remembered it should. Wrist stiff, knuckles pale. The metal trembled minutely. She prayed Knell wouldn’t see.

  She cut the egg. Ate it. Chewed until the texture blurred. Swallowed.

  Waited.

  No rejection.

  She was grateful. Because Knell was here, and that was what this room required of her. Her jaw, throat, breath, all moving in a rhythm that felt borrowed, like muscle-memory from someone else.

  Focus. Don’t stall. Don’t make a scene.

  She cut the next piece.

  Then her spine straightened the moment Knell sat across from her, placing a cup down with practiced gentleness. She opened a newspaper, raising a tall, familiar wall between them.

  Knell’s morning ritual. A cup and the news. Every day. Always.

  Writ noticed the cup was dark today. Coffee, not tea. The smell reached her a heartbeat later. Bitter, sharp, cutting cleanly through the softer scents of food. It settled in her lungs, made the air feel narrower.

  She corrected her grip on the spoon without thinking. Writ told herself it didn’t bother her. That Knell’s presence wasn’t surveillance.

  Writ swallowed. Then took another bite. And another, until the very last piece.

  Her stomach barely reacted. Her mind floated. She might as well have been eating fog.

  Knell wasn’t watching, but Writ felt observed in that soft, unobtrusive way that pinned without pressure. Authority didn’t need weight. It only needed to exist.

  She finished the egg. A victory.

  Writ set the cutlery down.

  Knell lowered the newspaper. Looked at Writ. Then at the barely touched food. Then back again. Flat, emotionless, slicing cleanly through the morning air. “Eat more.”

  Writ blinked, breath stuttering once. Her fingers curled against her lap before she raised the fork again and repeated the motions on a second egg.

  Knell sipped her coffee, unhurried. It felt worse, somehow.

  The second egg went down. Not smooth, but possible. Even as nausea crept up her throat.

  Writ lowered the fork.

  “More,” Knell said again, voice drifting from behind the paper.

  Writ’s body locked.

  Her pulse thudded up into her throat. Her palms grew damp. A faint tremor buzzed under her kneecaps. Her gaze skimmed the table. Soup, bacon, omelette. Bread. Broth.

  Safe or unsafe. She wasn’t sure which was which anymore. She didn’t know what she was supposed to choose, or whether choosing at all was the mistake.

  So she waited.

  Silence. Calm, patient.

  Knell turned a page. Then, gently, “Try the bread.”

  Writ swallowed nothing. Jaw clicking from the tension.

  She reached out with a small, mechanical motion and tore off a piece. The smell was soft, warm, accompanied by faint sweetness. They slid into her nose.

  Her stomach lurched.

  Her mind spat up the wrong images. Grass, sky, a hand on her cheek, a coin pouch under her desk.

  She forced the thought down.

  Forced the bread into her mouth.

  Chewed.

  Her eyes stung from strain rather than tears. And tightness. Holding everything in place. Even her ribs had gone rigid, as if tension alone could keep her from gagging.

  Swallow.

  It scraped on the way down.

  Landed heavy.

  She tried to ignore the nausea taking root in her gut, urging the bread back up. It made her retch. She forced the sound down.

  Knell didn’t comment.

  Writ took another bite. Smaller. Her fingertips trembled, the motion contained to the extremities she could hide.

  Her thoughts frayed.

  Knell’s watching.

  Do it right.

  Don’t choke.

  Don’t freeze.

  Don’t disappoint her.

  Don’t—

  She chewed.

  Swallowed.

  Sipped water to keep her throat open.

  Her body moved like it remembered a script she hadn’t agreed to follow again. One rehearsed in this very room, in the empty space where her old seat had been.

  Knell read the paper. Calm, still.

  Writ ate because she was being watched.

  Because Knell told her to.

  Because this was who she was trained to be:

  Silent.

  Controlled.

  Obediently functional.

  Her heartbeat sat high and hard in her throat, her stomach twisted in protest, but her hands kept moving.

  The performance held.

  It always held.

  It had no choice.

  Rip.

  Chew.

  Swallow.

  Drink.

  Knell turned another page of the newspaper.

  Rip.

  Chew.

  Swallow.

  Appease.

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